I'm already in therapy but just need an outside opinion?

Even though they've been mean to me, why do I think a lot about the reverend and his family? I'm 21 and sometimes I'm jealous of his 14 year old daughter. She seems so happy, social, nice, etc. I wasn't so happy at the age. I had been d 2x by that time. I sometimes wish I could be other people specifically the pk's. Even tho they seem kinda snobby or is it just me? I want to think they're good people but it's hard sometimes. I don't know why I've targeted the clergy and their families. I'm really introverted so most people I don't even want to hang out with and when I'm around the clergys' families I don't even say anything.